That’s what you’ll say and maybe even believe until you realize you are just a scared little kid that wants to fit in but can’t and won’t until you grow the fuck up.
I’m sure you know that and get anxious at the thought of it because you really don’t know how. Until one day life will hit you so fucking hard you won’t be able to breathe. Maybe then you’ll grab your nuts and wake the hell up but I have my doubts.